I got ready for the party, trying to do something different with my makeup but failing miserably. Robert called me and said, "We're on our way to come get you! Oh, bring your ipod for car music...mine's dead." I say alright and hang up the phone. Then I realize.
fuck. I look like shit:
See?! But hey. I'm wearing my favorite ratty old hoodie and glow-in-the-dark Harry Potter shirt so it's whatever. :)
Robert pulls up to my house with Jessica and I go walkin out like I'm hot shit, even though I look like STUPID shit haha. I get in the car, and we go pick up Ryan...but then we have to go pick up Mindy.
We're listening to my ipod in the car, and I decide that I want to pick one song. I don't wanna play DJ or anything, there's just a song I'd really like to jam to. The Black Dahlia Murder, of course. So I put it on but then Jessica whirls around in her seat during the intro and says, "Will there be screaming? I don't like screaming. If there's screaming I'm turning it off."
I said, "You're definitely going to hear some things you don't like."
When she hears the lyrics she turns around and I'm not even kidding you, gives me the death glare like none other. The look on her face said, 'Are you fucking kidding me? You are a stupid bitch. I can't believe you like this.'
For some reason, I almost punched her. Okay, you make me listen to DubStep and all that techno bull shit that you call "music" but I want to listen to ONE song on MY ipod that I brought as a FAVOR and you turn it off instantly? God damn it bitch, I will shove my ipod down your whorish throat.
But I don't say anything, just take my ipod back and we listen to that stupid techno shit. I'd go into the part of the story where Jessica falls off of a moving vehicle like the dumbass she is and Robert almost gets in a fight with a 40 year old drunk guy....but I'm so dumbfounded by Jessica's pure stupidity that I couldn't bring myself to write about that. So we'll fast forward to the party.
We show up. :)
Eftichi and Preston are there (yay!), along with a few other people. It's a relatively small party. I give Preston a hug and as usual he's staring at my tits again. I don't care, it's not like he could ever see them and Preston's a funny guy, we get along pretty well. :) Eftichi is wearing a full on suit. Like...dressed up. I'm surprised and said, "Damn, Eftichi why are you so dressed up? You're lookin great! But I feel under-dressed standing next to you!" He just flashes his sexy greek smile and says, "I just felt like it. You never need a reason to dress up."
"Oh my God, Eftichi, I love you. Seriously, that is the best thing I've heard all day. Next weekend, I'm showing up in a prom dress."
And he just smiles again, hugs me, and kisses my temple. Wtf, did Eftichi just kiss my head? I think he did.... Ah, fuck it. I'm gettin a beer.
Preston leaves after only staying for about 25 minutes and before he leaves he just full on grabs my ass...um, alright? I guess? So I grab his. We are officially ass-grabbing friends apparently.
Robert decided he's gonna do fucking ecstasy. Another reason why I don't like Jessica. She has gotten Robert into ecstasy. And Robert used to be like...my drug-free pal! Ugh! That stupid bitch is ruining my best friend! But you know what? It's okay. I'll just drink more.
The more I play beer pong and the more I consume alcohol, the more I smile. I get in a better mood, and I'm feeling a little more relaxed. I'm not drunk, just feeling fantastic. I sit in the living room after smoking a cigarette and watch White Chicks with Ryan, sipping on my Miller Highlife. Ryan had just got dumped earlier so I'm trying to include him in conversations and activities, trying to make him feel at least a little better....without him thinking I'm going to be like, a rebound bang or something like that. NOT HAPPENING. lol
Eftichi sits next to me on the couch and wraps his arm around me, and I snuggle close. [[See this is what I was talking about! The affection thingy!]] We socialize with everyone, talking laughing, having a general good time.
Jessica's stupid ass needs to go to the store for something and asks me if I want to go with. Well, I did finish my beer. And I'm slightly tipsy which means I can almost enjoy her company. So why not? I search around for my jacket but can't find it. I only see Eftichi's suit jacket. So I put it on and say, "Eftichi, we're running to the store, and I'm wearing your suit jacket because I can't find mine. Plus, this will make sure you're here when I get back." And I wink at him and run out the door with Jessica. What the hell, did I just wink at him?! No. No no no no no. Now he's gonna think he's gonna get the goodies and he's not. Maybe. I hope not anyways. I don't know!
When I get back, Eftichi and I go outside for a smoke. It's a little chilly outside, so I let him wrap his arms around me while we take drags off the cigarette and exhale the warm smoke into the air. I'm giggling like an idiot at the cute things he's doing like blowing in my ear because he knows it tickles, or making silly cute faces at me. And all of a sudden his nose brushes against the side of mine and we kiss.
Holy. Fucking Hell.
I haven't kissed someone this good at kissing...in over a year. Dead serious. Don't get me wrong, my body didn't catch fire, but it was pure sexiness.
The mixed smells of his cologne and cigarette smoke on his jacket made my head swim and made me excited. I clung to his jacket while his tongue searched the tip of mine and then I pulled away. "Okay, okay, this is...yeah," I couldn't quite talk, I was trying to breathe. And trying not to rape him. "Yeah?" he said, then tugged me in one more time for another kiss. This time my hand found my favorite spot to rest when I'm kissing someone. It was right between his jawbone and neck, pulling him deeper into the kiss momentarily before Eftichi broke off the kiss and suggested we go inside.
Thank God! I can't be kissing guys like this! Especially Eftichi! I mean, no offense to Eftichi, I love him to death. But he is a sex addict, and I don't have sex. See where that might be a problem?
So we go back inside, Robert is trippin balls and talking about how the trees were talking to him. (I'm glaring at Jessica the whole time.) But for the most part, it's still a pretty okay time. When it comes time to bounce and go home, I ride with Eftichi home. Just me and him. In his car.
Uh-oh.
BUT DON'T WORRY! THIS STORY ENDS WELL! SORT OF.
He drives me home, it's casual talk, but I can feel the sort of shy tension still. We pull up to my house, we make out for five minutes and then I get out of the car and go inside.
When I walked into the house, I threw my bag on the couch, snatched up the house phone and called Jon immediately.
I was thinking, 'God damn it, Jon is gonna hate me now. I can't lose him. I love him. Why am I so stupid? Why do I always have the need for affection? God I'm such a fucking IDIOT!'
When he answered, I couldn't believe how high my heart jumped. I choked on my heart, and almost threw up. That's how much I love this guy.
Him: "Hey, baby. What are you doin?"
Me: "...nothin.. :D" ←Yes, I put a smiley face in my own quote because there is no way he couldn't hear my smiley on the other end of the line.
He probably hears me smiling like a fool right now, for Christ's sakes. I can't write about him without grinning from ear to ear.
He was really tired, I don't blame him I got home kinda late, so our conversation was shorter than usual. He wasn't mad at me for what happened. He knows I want to be with him forever. I keep expecting him to get mad at me for something, but he never does.
Hearing his steady breathing right before he fell asleep made me so incredibly happy it's almost embarrassing. I can't wait to hear it every single night when I'm right next to him.
The other night when I called him, he said something I will probably never forget.
Mostly because I wrote it down; I wanted to remember it forever.
Me: What are you thinkin about?
Him: You.
Me: Well what about me?
Him: I was just thinking about, how amazing it would be. To make love to you right now. Hold you close while I push into you, whispering to you how much you mean to me, how much I love you.
When he said that, my whole body and heart ached for him. And I just smiled and looked at my stupid feet, hoping that I'll be everything that he ever expected, needed, and wanted.
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