Losing a best friend is the worst thing anyone could ever go through.
This is the second time for me.
First it was Adrianna. It still hurts when I think about her.
Now it's Jonathan, and my heart breaks every day. Every minute. I don't know why I lose the people I love. I don't know why I'm such an idiot.
I try so hard to be a good person, to be the kind of person I want to be, but it's never enough. I don't think anyone ever sees how hard I try. I want to be a good friend, I want to be a good girlfriend.
I want to get married, I want to have kids, and I want to be the best mother I can possibly be. I try so fucking hard, and it's never enough. My dreams are always out of reach. I can never be enough, I can never try hard enough.