It's fucking ridiculous how baby hungry I've been lately. Every time I see a brown baby I'm like,

I FUCKING WANT IT I WANT IT, I WANT A BROWN BABY WITH JONATHAN.

But he's so far away. :/

For the best probably, because I can't afford any children right now.

I just wish I was good enough for him.

I can't tell if I'm running away, or if this is something I really need to do.